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How my facets help people
Dec. 2nd, 2013 07:32 pmThere is a library at which I volunteer on Mondays, and when I volunteer there, I often have a lot of time to just work and think. When I think, I think about all sorts of things, and today I was thinking about my facets, and I came to an amazing and kind of gigantic conclusion.
I started by thinking about the fact that none of them really help people. Like, if they actually are people who are extensions of myself (as I am suspecting them to be), I expect them to live up to my standards and thus be useful and help other people. But they don't really do that. Other than the time Eames helped my friend Jared with his homework by giving an analogy of power to steak knives and the fact that Eleven might be the one running an in-character Doctor Who help blog after all, they don't really help anyone.
I then realized that it is pretty hard to help people when you're stuck inside another person's head, and then it hit me. My facets are stuck inside my own head, but from there, they do help someone. They help me.
Virtually all of them benefit me in some way. Loki helps me to be grateful for my family, Timothy always makes me happy when he's out, Martin helps me do tasks and be responsible, even Eames is kind of helpful because he doesn't worry about anything and he's good at being able to do things with minimal effort. And they do this for me. Maybe they don't all do it intentionally for me, but most of them, just by being themselves, help me do something. Most of them I brought into the world on purpose to help me, but they sort of took on lives of their own, so they're sort of people. I have about twenty facets. That's about twenty people who exist to help me, whose very existences help me, who help me constantly.
I have about twenty people whose existences are based on the premise that they can help me in some way.
They exist for me and only me. And not only do they help me, most of them want to help me.
It was an overwhelming thought, and I had to sit down and take some deep breaths and cry a little bit because wow. If my facets are all real people, then I have a bunch of people who live to help me. And if my facets are only sort-of people, then I still have a bunch of sort-of people who live to help me. And that's amazing.
(Also, yes, I've mentioned a bunch of people of whom you've never heard - like you don't know my facets or anything - but I'm going to make a list of them all and post it either today or tomorrow. I realize I've been doing that thing where I make a bunch of posts in the same day, and maybe that's not a great thing, but whatever. Since no one is reading this - not at this point, anyway - I don't suspect there's anyone to really care.)
I started by thinking about the fact that none of them really help people. Like, if they actually are people who are extensions of myself (as I am suspecting them to be), I expect them to live up to my standards and thus be useful and help other people. But they don't really do that. Other than the time Eames helped my friend Jared with his homework by giving an analogy of power to steak knives and the fact that Eleven might be the one running an in-character Doctor Who help blog after all, they don't really help anyone.
I then realized that it is pretty hard to help people when you're stuck inside another person's head, and then it hit me. My facets are stuck inside my own head, but from there, they do help someone. They help me.
Virtually all of them benefit me in some way. Loki helps me to be grateful for my family, Timothy always makes me happy when he's out, Martin helps me do tasks and be responsible, even Eames is kind of helpful because he doesn't worry about anything and he's good at being able to do things with minimal effort. And they do this for me. Maybe they don't all do it intentionally for me, but most of them, just by being themselves, help me do something. Most of them I brought into the world on purpose to help me, but they sort of took on lives of their own, so they're sort of people. I have about twenty facets. That's about twenty people who exist to help me, whose very existences help me, who help me constantly.
I have about twenty people whose existences are based on the premise that they can help me in some way.
They exist for me and only me. And not only do they help me, most of them want to help me.
It was an overwhelming thought, and I had to sit down and take some deep breaths and cry a little bit because wow. If my facets are all real people, then I have a bunch of people who live to help me. And if my facets are only sort-of people, then I still have a bunch of sort-of people who live to help me. And that's amazing.
(Also, yes, I've mentioned a bunch of people of whom you've never heard - like you don't know my facets or anything - but I'm going to make a list of them all and post it either today or tomorrow. I realize I've been doing that thing where I make a bunch of posts in the same day, and maybe that's not a great thing, but whatever. Since no one is reading this - not at this point, anyway - I don't suspect there's anyone to really care.)
